With the kids (and grand kids)home from China in July, expectations were high for a summer filled with fun activities. Funny how the unexpected seems to happen. The week before they arrived, my summer changed.
In late June, the Doctors determined to try to let my foot heel on its own. After nearly 2 years of injuring my ankle, they suddenly put me in a walking cast for 4 weeks. July is not the most ideal time to wear a boot but 4 weeks is not that long of a time to attempt to avoid surgery. It became a real adventure trying to do things with grand daughters (3&5). I managed to survive the test period and even managed several weeks of swimming & games with the girls before the next phase of summer.
Not being successful in the ankle repairing of itself, surgery was recommended and approved by the insurance company. One minor 'little' hitch arose, a sliver. Pulling weeds, I got a sliver in my finger. The sliver became infected to the point of requiring surgery and daily anti-biotic infusions for almost 4 weeks. So I went from a boot on the foot to a club on the arm and a pic line in the other arm. Needless to say, the foot surgery was placed on hold till the infections were totally cleared up. There goes the month of August and part of September.
Finally, with the infections clear, surgery on the foot was scheduled. On October 10th, I had the peroneal tendons in the right foot repaired. The doctor said they (the tendons) were shredded. Recovery is expected to take 8-12 weeks. This, being only day 3, has the indication of extending the 'Fun' into the winter.
I know from Eccl 3:1 that "To every [thing there is] a season, and a time to every purpose under the heaven". I know God has a reason for all thing, thus I will use this time to seek the reasons of God. Rather than dwell on these things and have an Eore attitude (Oh Bother, Why me????), I envision this season as a time of restoration (Body and Heart towards the things of God).
Wednesday, October 12, 2011
Friday, September 23, 2011
Summer's End
The seasons here in Oregon seem to be out of sync at times. Spring pushed its way deep into the summer, just like winter had done to spring. Today is officially the first day of fall, yet it worked its way up to the low 90's again. Is this normal??? I would say it really is. Every year at this time, the days get warm but the evening sky drops a little faster each day. the longer nights allow the temps to drop - sometimes into the 30's or 40's.
The most wonderful aspect of this season is the changes we see around us;leaves on trees turn into a masterpiece of color, clouds come & go (sometimes giving us cleansing showers), kids return to school (with new enthusiasm & clothes), and the rush of trying to milk out the maximum enjoyment of summer is over. Unlike many parts of this country, we have the blessing of four distinct seasons and can enjoy each of them as they occur.
It is only fitting that the end of summer occurs with a time of festivities, similar to the beginning. We start the summer with Memorial Day and the 4th of July celebration. As summer draws to a close, we always spend time at the Oregon State Fair around Labor day, followed by indulging in the exquisite cuisine of the Oktoberfest just two weeks later. These events generally also welcome the first measurable rains of the new season (like magnets). It is therefore no surprise that only five days after the Oktoberfest(which is in September for some strange reason, a different topic) is the official dawning of AUTUMN.
I will now say 'good bye' to summer for another year. Will I not personally miss the hot days,but I will I miss the late hour sunsets or early sunrises. I will also enjoy being able to sleep in comfort, not soaked from the unbearable temperatures inside the house. So again, goodbye summer, see you next year.
The most wonderful aspect of this season is the changes we see around us;leaves on trees turn into a masterpiece of color, clouds come & go (sometimes giving us cleansing showers), kids return to school (with new enthusiasm & clothes), and the rush of trying to milk out the maximum enjoyment of summer is over. Unlike many parts of this country, we have the blessing of four distinct seasons and can enjoy each of them as they occur.
It is only fitting that the end of summer occurs with a time of festivities, similar to the beginning. We start the summer with Memorial Day and the 4th of July celebration. As summer draws to a close, we always spend time at the Oregon State Fair around Labor day, followed by indulging in the exquisite cuisine of the Oktoberfest just two weeks later. These events generally also welcome the first measurable rains of the new season (like magnets). It is therefore no surprise that only five days after the Oktoberfest(which is in September for some strange reason, a different topic) is the official dawning of AUTUMN.
I will now say 'good bye' to summer for another year. Will I not personally miss the hot days,but I will I miss the late hour sunsets or early sunrises. I will also enjoy being able to sleep in comfort, not soaked from the unbearable temperatures inside the house. So again, goodbye summer, see you next year.
Friday, May 13, 2011
Cheating
I was thinking about the concept of cheating this week. As children of God, we are called to be honest and trust worthy. Satan, on the other hand, is the deceiver we are told. Why then do we as humans teeter on that edge?
When we play games with friends, we play for fun yet the competitive nature looks for an advantage, even if not squarely in line with having fun. I remember how as a little girl, Heather 'always' beat Grammy at her games, but it wasn't Heather who cheated, it was Grammy (with good intentions). When playing solitaire, most people will cheat to win - because nobody is looking at or watching them.
How does this relate to every day life? To God's word? Many tend to look at life's issues as a game of solitaire, thinking it's o.k. to fudge a little if it appears that nobody is looking. Hidden snacks while dieting, questionable deductions on tax filings, borrowed quotes in school papers, and inflated personal deeds (as well as how big the fish that got away really was) are just a few examples.
The only real catch; is we are seen and will be held accountable for all of our actions. God sees and will judge us in everything we think and do. We in turn are called to be holy - like God is, even in our conversation and deeds(1 Peter 1:15-16).
Reflecting upon this, I know I have a ways to go if I want to be holy, and I really do. This is the constant struggle of mankind between good (Godly nature) and evil (human nature inflenced by Satan). I know where I want to be, it's the getting there that is difficult.
It is comforting to remember that God will not allow us to be tempted beyond what He gives us the ability to resist and escape(1 Cor. 10:13). When I feel the pull to 'cheat', I know that it is my choice - not something the devil made me do. God is bigger than the Devil and myself combined. I need to learn to tap into His strength to be more like Him in all things.
In conclusion, "cheaters never prosper" seems appropriate. Just like in solitaire, cheating may give you a temporal victory, but for eternal rewards, we must be found to be blameless. Only God can bring that about in our lives.
When we play games with friends, we play for fun yet the competitive nature looks for an advantage, even if not squarely in line with having fun. I remember how as a little girl, Heather 'always' beat Grammy at her games, but it wasn't Heather who cheated, it was Grammy (with good intentions). When playing solitaire, most people will cheat to win - because nobody is looking at or watching them.
How does this relate to every day life? To God's word? Many tend to look at life's issues as a game of solitaire, thinking it's o.k. to fudge a little if it appears that nobody is looking. Hidden snacks while dieting, questionable deductions on tax filings, borrowed quotes in school papers, and inflated personal deeds (as well as how big the fish that got away really was) are just a few examples.
The only real catch; is we are seen and will be held accountable for all of our actions. God sees and will judge us in everything we think and do. We in turn are called to be holy - like God is, even in our conversation and deeds(1 Peter 1:15-16).
Reflecting upon this, I know I have a ways to go if I want to be holy, and I really do. This is the constant struggle of mankind between good (Godly nature) and evil (human nature inflenced by Satan). I know where I want to be, it's the getting there that is difficult.
It is comforting to remember that God will not allow us to be tempted beyond what He gives us the ability to resist and escape(1 Cor. 10:13). When I feel the pull to 'cheat', I know that it is my choice - not something the devil made me do. God is bigger than the Devil and myself combined. I need to learn to tap into His strength to be more like Him in all things.
In conclusion, "cheaters never prosper" seems appropriate. Just like in solitaire, cheating may give you a temporal victory, but for eternal rewards, we must be found to be blameless. Only God can bring that about in our lives.
Tuesday, February 22, 2011
Car Rental
I've began to rethink loyalties to any particular Car Rental agency. I for years have been devoted to Enterprise, but they are not 'traveler' friendly. Little things seem to get in the way such as "no one way travel", "limited mileage", and "no crossing over State lines". As I prepare to cross the country with my Daughter to South Carolina, a short visit to see my sister in North Carolina just 4 hours away would be nice. Enterprise sent me a discount and a free upgrade for messing up my last rental so I called them. I was given the same excuses again (no one way and no crossing State lines). I guess my rental rate is jumping from $10.00/day to about $60.00/day.
Enterprise, you are great if I don't need to go anywhere or if I want to go where I am at already, but I will not waste anymore time calling you if I want to travel. I guess this only proves that the least expensive deals are not always the best.
I'm so glad that God doesn't offer us special 'deals' that we can't use. He only offers us eternal life and the cost never changes (though we may at times think the cost is too high for us).
Enterprise, you are great if I don't need to go anywhere or if I want to go where I am at already, but I will not waste anymore time calling you if I want to travel. I guess this only proves that the least expensive deals are not always the best.
I'm so glad that God doesn't offer us special 'deals' that we can't use. He only offers us eternal life and the cost never changes (though we may at times think the cost is too high for us).
Thursday, February 10, 2011
Papa
Several days ago, Ellenor asked me "can I call you Papa?" I answered that she already has a Papa and he is at his Army work. I told her that I was her Ponka (the name I somehow inherited) and could not be her Papa.
As I pondered upon this event, I began to think about the spiritual parallel. How often are we in situations where we find ourselves separated from our heavenly 'Papa'? In those times of alienation, do we look for a substitute, a surrogate 'Papa'? Are we willing to attach ourselves to another out of loneliness or fear?
Sweet Ellenor, what a trooper at the age of 2. Your papa loves you dearly. You will be with Papa in only 34 more days. Till then, you can share your hugs with me all you want. To everyone else, remember we already have a 'Papa" in God. He loves us unconditionally. When we find ourselves separated from Him, He is still there waiting for us to seek Him.
As I pondered upon this event, I began to think about the spiritual parallel. How often are we in situations where we find ourselves separated from our heavenly 'Papa'? In those times of alienation, do we look for a substitute, a surrogate 'Papa'? Are we willing to attach ourselves to another out of loneliness or fear?
Sweet Ellenor, what a trooper at the age of 2. Your papa loves you dearly. You will be with Papa in only 34 more days. Till then, you can share your hugs with me all you want. To everyone else, remember we already have a 'Papa" in God. He loves us unconditionally. When we find ourselves separated from Him, He is still there waiting for us to seek Him.
Saturday, January 15, 2011
The Conflict between Islam and Christianity
Islam and Christianity, both lay claim to similar roots through the seed of Abraham of the Jewish faith found in the Old Testament. With such a shared heritage, one would expect the two faiths to have much in common, particularly world views pertaining to God. Nothing could be further from the truth. Many of the basic viewpoints of Christianity are in absolute conflict with those of Islam. Having contrasting teaching and understanding of God’s word, it is inevitable that the key decision-making motivators of each would be in conflict. Following is a brief outline of some of the most prevalent discrepancies between the two.
Islamic teachings center on the worship of one God, Allah. Contrary to Christianity, Muslims do not accept the concept of the Triune nature of that one God. Jesus, whom Christians recognize as God (part of the Trinity), is accepted by Muslims as a ‘good’ prophet, like Mohammed. This denial of Jesus’ divinity by Islam creates the major discrepancy between the two faiths.
Christian (as well as Jewish) teaching tells the reader that Adam sinned against God and could only be restored to God through Atonement. Additionally, Christian doctrine concludes that God sent His son, in human flesh, to die upon the cross to accomplish this Atonement of sins, thereby offering man restoration as an unearned gift. Islam counters that Adam was faultless in his walk before God; Jesus was only a man who did not suffer death on the cross, thus no Atonement was achieved, and that salvation is earned through deeds, not free as a gift.
Another major conflict in beliefs is found in the methodology of an individual’s conversion to the faith. Christianity teaches that each person must enter the faith of their own volition, as a voluntary action. Islam teaches that conversion to the faith must be imposed by forced upon individuals and/or communities.
Based upon today’s world standards, Christianity (in a diluted state) has the appearance of being more ‘tolerant’ of their surroundings. Tolerance, as a human trait, is generally a compromise in application of God’s word. Islam (in the most part) teaches very little tolerance, especially in areas that violate their understanding of God’s word as they understand it. The unfortunate thing about this is that mainline Muslims are in many ways more in line with the scriptural teachings of God on topics such as Homosexuality, Adultery, and Prayer than most ‘mainline’ Christian Churches.
Can Christians and Muslims become more unified in their beliefs and teachings? Can commonality be found in their worldviews? This is most likely not possible due to the large chasm between the two. As long as the two can not agree on; the fall of man, the atonement of sin through God (Jesus), and salvation as a gift as opposed to works, the basis for absolute values as truth in a worldview can not be achieved.
Islamic teachings center on the worship of one God, Allah. Contrary to Christianity, Muslims do not accept the concept of the Triune nature of that one God. Jesus, whom Christians recognize as God (part of the Trinity), is accepted by Muslims as a ‘good’ prophet, like Mohammed. This denial of Jesus’ divinity by Islam creates the major discrepancy between the two faiths.
Christian (as well as Jewish) teaching tells the reader that Adam sinned against God and could only be restored to God through Atonement. Additionally, Christian doctrine concludes that God sent His son, in human flesh, to die upon the cross to accomplish this Atonement of sins, thereby offering man restoration as an unearned gift. Islam counters that Adam was faultless in his walk before God; Jesus was only a man who did not suffer death on the cross, thus no Atonement was achieved, and that salvation is earned through deeds, not free as a gift.
Another major conflict in beliefs is found in the methodology of an individual’s conversion to the faith. Christianity teaches that each person must enter the faith of their own volition, as a voluntary action. Islam teaches that conversion to the faith must be imposed by forced upon individuals and/or communities.
Based upon today’s world standards, Christianity (in a diluted state) has the appearance of being more ‘tolerant’ of their surroundings. Tolerance, as a human trait, is generally a compromise in application of God’s word. Islam (in the most part) teaches very little tolerance, especially in areas that violate their understanding of God’s word as they understand it. The unfortunate thing about this is that mainline Muslims are in many ways more in line with the scriptural teachings of God on topics such as Homosexuality, Adultery, and Prayer than most ‘mainline’ Christian Churches.
Can Christians and Muslims become more unified in their beliefs and teachings? Can commonality be found in their worldviews? This is most likely not possible due to the large chasm between the two. As long as the two can not agree on; the fall of man, the atonement of sin through God (Jesus), and salvation as a gift as opposed to works, the basis for absolute values as truth in a worldview can not be achieved.
Monday, January 10, 2011
Shrinking - Round 2
Now that the holiday season (Thanksgiving to National Championship) is over, it's time to come off the holding pattern and kick into the next gear. Through all the gaiety & oft dips into snacks, deserts, and extra meals, I managed to put on about 5 lbs. Starting anew, this should come off fairly quickly. All things considered, I am still 50-55 lbs less than one year ago.
The food packets are ordered and arriving in the next day or two. I must dedicate myself to strict adherence to the diet as I did last May. With this intent, My next goal is to lose another 30-40 lbs this year. This may sound like a new years resolution, but in reality, it is a new life resolution.
To keep myself honest, I invite those who care to challenge me in this venture. I pray that I continue in fulfilling God's plan for me to restore my health. Please pray for me as I strive to complete this task that God has required of me.
The food packets are ordered and arriving in the next day or two. I must dedicate myself to strict adherence to the diet as I did last May. With this intent, My next goal is to lose another 30-40 lbs this year. This may sound like a new years resolution, but in reality, it is a new life resolution.
To keep myself honest, I invite those who care to challenge me in this venture. I pray that I continue in fulfilling God's plan for me to restore my health. Please pray for me as I strive to complete this task that God has required of me.
Ducks were so close
Tie game with 2 seconds left, that close to finishing with a perfect season and a national championship. It was not to be as Auburn kicked a field goal to win it all. The Ducks left points on the field that were missed chances. Auburn in the end set up the winning points off of an unexpected, freak play. Runner pulled down then realizes he never touched a knee or arm ran another 37 yards.
All things happen for a reason. God's plans are bigger than a football game. Regardless of the outcome, the game experience was more memorable. sharing the game with 2 very excited Grandsons, from the pre-game to game food (dinner) to ringing green & yellow cowbells. Mix in the company of a wife & daughter & 2 little grand daughters, it was a wonderful time.
So I must say that I am a bit saddened with the loss but the memories of this night will last much longer than the details of the game itself. For that, I must say 'thank you' to the Oregon Football team and GO DUCKS.
All things happen for a reason. God's plans are bigger than a football game. Regardless of the outcome, the game experience was more memorable. sharing the game with 2 very excited Grandsons, from the pre-game to game food (dinner) to ringing green & yellow cowbells. Mix in the company of a wife & daughter & 2 little grand daughters, it was a wonderful time.
So I must say that I am a bit saddened with the loss but the memories of this night will last much longer than the details of the game itself. For that, I must say 'thank you' to the Oregon Football team and GO DUCKS.
Friday, December 31, 2010
Death and Dieing
Death is a topic that generally is not talked about by most people. There is always a sense of finality and sorrow associated with it. We are saddened by the mere thought of it. Though we as humans do our best to avoid death, it still happens.
Twelve days ago, My dad lost his Rita. Thirteen and a half years ago my Mother died, leaving my Dad in a world of hurt. God brought Rita into his life the next year. She gave him balance again. We, as a family accepted and loved Rita, as did she of us. Her death came as a sudden shock. She was diagnosed with cancer three weeks prior, had just completed radiation treatments and been told that she could expect 2-7 years before it took her. She didn't get her 2 years, but rather a mere 3 weeks, passing in her sleep - peacefully and now pain free.
The grieving process has set in for her family and my Dad. This has presented opportunities for me to share God's love for us and His plan for our eternity with my Dad. Does this remove the grief? Not really, but it does change the perceived finality of death. As each of us must deal with death at some point of our lives, it is easier to accept knowing that only through death will we see life eternal.
Twelve days ago, My dad lost his Rita. Thirteen and a half years ago my Mother died, leaving my Dad in a world of hurt. God brought Rita into his life the next year. She gave him balance again. We, as a family accepted and loved Rita, as did she of us. Her death came as a sudden shock. She was diagnosed with cancer three weeks prior, had just completed radiation treatments and been told that she could expect 2-7 years before it took her. She didn't get her 2 years, but rather a mere 3 weeks, passing in her sleep - peacefully and now pain free.
The grieving process has set in for her family and my Dad. This has presented opportunities for me to share God's love for us and His plan for our eternity with my Dad. Does this remove the grief? Not really, but it does change the perceived finality of death. As each of us must deal with death at some point of our lives, it is easier to accept knowing that only through death will we see life eternal.
The End of a Year
Why is it that the end of a year brings on a time of reflection of the past year? I have wondered and pondered over this question multiple times - usually at the end of a year. It seems that we do our reflecting at this time of year for several reasons.
1) A new year is ready to begin. As we look ahead, we are determined to try to make it a better year than we have ever had, thus we look back to see where we can improve.
2) We tend to not be satisfied with areas of our lives and we go into recall mode to identify these areas in order to remedy them.
3) We have made it through the Holiday season of hustle bustle from mid November through Christmas, finally able to relax and let our guard down.
4) We anticipate expected changes ahead of us and want to compare the changes to the past and plan ahead.
All this reflection leads us to (again) make a list of 'New Years Resolutions' Do we really plan to make all the changes we resolve to do? Usually, we begin with the full intent but life doesn't always cooperate with our plans.
This year, my resolution is to seek more fully what God desires for me to do. Do I expect a full list to be revealed on January 1st? No, this list will most likely change and be added to quite often. I guess then, reflecting on the past year(s), I can honestly say that my New Years Resolution is to become a better servant, becoming more pliable and available to be used of Him.
That being said, I can now say: HAPPY NEW YEAR - Ed
1) A new year is ready to begin. As we look ahead, we are determined to try to make it a better year than we have ever had, thus we look back to see where we can improve.
2) We tend to not be satisfied with areas of our lives and we go into recall mode to identify these areas in order to remedy them.
3) We have made it through the Holiday season of hustle bustle from mid November through Christmas, finally able to relax and let our guard down.
4) We anticipate expected changes ahead of us and want to compare the changes to the past and plan ahead.
All this reflection leads us to (again) make a list of 'New Years Resolutions' Do we really plan to make all the changes we resolve to do? Usually, we begin with the full intent but life doesn't always cooperate with our plans.
This year, my resolution is to seek more fully what God desires for me to do. Do I expect a full list to be revealed on January 1st? No, this list will most likely change and be added to quite often. I guess then, reflecting on the past year(s), I can honestly say that my New Years Resolution is to become a better servant, becoming more pliable and available to be used of Him.
That being said, I can now say: HAPPY NEW YEAR - Ed
Wednesday, November 17, 2010
Still Shrinking
It,s funny how just one year ago, I took a lot of pride in losing 5 lbs, yet now after losing 55 lbs, I,m not content. I have stopped making excuses for why I couldn't lose the weight. Now I blame myself for interrupting my weight loss. I guess this is because I know that I can do it and should continue.
The Holiday season is upon us, Thanksgiving in a week, Christmas in 5 weeks, then New Years the next week. This season will be a real test for me since I really like food. I especially like sweets (fudge, mints, brittle, etc...) and Turkey with the works. Interesting, unlike many past years, I have developed a good appetite for green salads, maybe this will help me survive the temptations of the season.
This new attitude should help me to enjoy the Holidays with out feelings of disappointment, thinking up more excuses. If I happen to stall or even gain a pound or two, I will just have to accept the blame then get right back at it. I know that 55 lbs is something to be happy about, but I will not be satisfied until I lose at least another 30 pounds. Till then, I hope to remain 'the incredible shrinking man'.
The Holiday season is upon us, Thanksgiving in a week, Christmas in 5 weeks, then New Years the next week. This season will be a real test for me since I really like food. I especially like sweets (fudge, mints, brittle, etc...) and Turkey with the works. Interesting, unlike many past years, I have developed a good appetite for green salads, maybe this will help me survive the temptations of the season.
This new attitude should help me to enjoy the Holidays with out feelings of disappointment, thinking up more excuses. If I happen to stall or even gain a pound or two, I will just have to accept the blame then get right back at it. I know that 55 lbs is something to be happy about, but I will not be satisfied until I lose at least another 30 pounds. Till then, I hope to remain 'the incredible shrinking man'.
Tuesday, November 2, 2010
Sports page
One of the things in the last 35 years that has remained a constant has been that the sports section of the newspaper is mine. My wife, Laurie really doesn't care much about sports and practically never even touches the section. My 2 daughters were almost the same, Heather only glancing occasionally at one page during High School looking for her own or a friends name or to get upset that the local paper didn't (again) cover her School's sporting event at all.
My son I expected a bit more from, but he enjoyed playing - not reading. He was content to allow me to read the pages and tell him if anything important (to him) was in there, like his goal the day before. Other than that, it was my section to read, mostly about something involving the Ducks.
These family principles have taken a hit recently. During a recent visit in our home, my 6 year old Grandson has totally violated this tradition. He has been introduced to the NFL and scores/stats as a means of making the learning of math more fun. He had the audacity to actually remove the section completely from the unread paper and dive into the pages. How am I to react to these actions???
I have to admit that watching him become so excited in this activity and then spend hours telling me the details just made me smile. His knowledge of the NFL supersedes my own vastly. His excitement in telling his Papa on the phone was a beautiful exchange. I must conclude by saying, "Solomon, you can take my sports page any time you like."
My son I expected a bit more from, but he enjoyed playing - not reading. He was content to allow me to read the pages and tell him if anything important (to him) was in there, like his goal the day before. Other than that, it was my section to read, mostly about something involving the Ducks.
These family principles have taken a hit recently. During a recent visit in our home, my 6 year old Grandson has totally violated this tradition. He has been introduced to the NFL and scores/stats as a means of making the learning of math more fun. He had the audacity to actually remove the section completely from the unread paper and dive into the pages. How am I to react to these actions???
I have to admit that watching him become so excited in this activity and then spend hours telling me the details just made me smile. His knowledge of the NFL supersedes my own vastly. His excitement in telling his Papa on the phone was a beautiful exchange. I must conclude by saying, "Solomon, you can take my sports page any time you like."
Time
Where has time gone? I can't believe it has been 4 months since I last wrote on here. So much has happened in theses last 120 days that I can never try to recall them all. I will try to catch up on a few over the next week or 2.
Time, an interesting topic to discuss. For some, like my newest granddaughter, four months is practically a lifetime. For others, like my wonderful Mother in law, the last four months are seemingly a count down to the end of her time. She is such a trooper, sometimes leading us to believe she might just out live all of us. As her health and body move through the process of finalization, she amazes us with her stamina and desire to enjoy every moment possible with those she loves. Though her heart is intent to stretch those times out, her body tells her to rest - rest for another time.
She knows her time here is nearly complete and has accepted the truth of that statement. With her though, until that final moment comes, she will continue to grab hold of the time she has and enjoy what she can. Is this hard for her to do or is it more difficult for those around her that love her the most? I'm not too sure how to answer that.
As we define time, having a beginning and an end, I am reminded that with God, time technically has no beginning or ending. We have the assurance that we will, upon leaving this life, have life eternal with Him. The very thought of this for my other Mother is a joyous one. Having lost my own Mom 13 years ago, I know the pains of loss, yet I rejoice in the knowledge of a better life that she and soon Mom (Grammy) will be abiding in.
Time, an interesting topic to discuss. For some, like my newest granddaughter, four months is practically a lifetime. For others, like my wonderful Mother in law, the last four months are seemingly a count down to the end of her time. She is such a trooper, sometimes leading us to believe she might just out live all of us. As her health and body move through the process of finalization, she amazes us with her stamina and desire to enjoy every moment possible with those she loves. Though her heart is intent to stretch those times out, her body tells her to rest - rest for another time.
She knows her time here is nearly complete and has accepted the truth of that statement. With her though, until that final moment comes, she will continue to grab hold of the time she has and enjoy what she can. Is this hard for her to do or is it more difficult for those around her that love her the most? I'm not too sure how to answer that.
As we define time, having a beginning and an end, I am reminded that with God, time technically has no beginning or ending. We have the assurance that we will, upon leaving this life, have life eternal with Him. The very thought of this for my other Mother is a joyous one. Having lost my own Mom 13 years ago, I know the pains of loss, yet I rejoice in the knowledge of a better life that she and soon Mom (Grammy) will be abiding in.
Sunday, July 4, 2010
Independence
July 4th and I find myself independent of almost 50 lbs. this year. With the first goal of reaching 250# before China, I am only 2 lbs. away with 20 days to go. With three different celebration gatherings in 30 hours I'm hoping not to completely blow it.
As time permits, I will expound upon the details of my (our) weight loss program. I say our since my wife is supporting me in doing this with me. Before we finish we will have shed over 100# combined. More on this later, Ed
As time permits, I will expound upon the details of my (our) weight loss program. I say our since my wife is supporting me in doing this with me. Before we finish we will have shed over 100# combined. More on this later, Ed
Celebration
The 4th of July. It is a day of rememberance as well as celebration. I used to believr that if creatures from outer space were to come that night, they would determine the earth's air had too much sulpher for them and leave us alone. The fireworks, parades, and gatherings with family & friends is all so exciting, almost a rushing in (finally) of Summer. It is important to remember the sacrifices so many have made so we could enjoy our freedom. Following are a few clips from two of my favorite actors on the subject.
The pledge by Red Skelton
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=LPbIls0iOnI
And this from John wayne
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=3Jf3MQpffBc&NR=1
And TAPS
One version of the origin of the song:
It all began in 1862 during the Civil War, when Union Army Robert Ellicombe was with his men near Harrison's Landing in Virginia. The Confederate Army was on the other side of the narrow strip of land. During the night, Captain Ellicombe heard the moan of a soldier who lay mortally wounded on the field. Not knowing if it was a Union or Confederate soldier, the captain decided to risk his life and bring the stricken man back for medical attention. Crawling on his stomach the through gunfire, the captain reached the stricken soldier and began pulling him toward his encampment. When the captain finally reached his own lines, he discovered it was actually a Confederate soldier, but the soldier was dead. The captain lit a lantern, suddenly he caught his breath and went white with shock. In the dim light, he saw the face of the soldier, it was his own son.
The boy had been studying music in the South when the war broke out. Without telling his father, he enlisted in the Confederate Army. The following morning, heartbroken, the father asked permission of his superiors to give his son a full military burial despite his enemy status. His request was partially granted. The captain had asked if he could have a group of Army band members play a funeral dirge for the son at the funeral. That request was turned down since the soldier was a Confederate. Out of respect for the father, they did say they could give him only one musician. The father chose the bugler. He asked the bugler to play a series of musical notes he had found on a piece of paper in the pocket of his dead son's uniform. This wish was granted.
This music was the haunting melody we now know as "Taps"
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=usk81XVsE9o&feature=related
Here are the words to TAPS:
Verse 1:
Day is done,
Gone the sun,
From the lakes,
From the hills,
From the sky,
All is well,
Safely rest,
God is nigh.
Verse 2:
Fading light,
Dims the sight,
And a star,
Gems the sky,
Gleaming bright,
From afar,
Drawing nigh,
Falls the night.
Verse 3:
Thanks and praise,
For our days,
Neath the sun,
Neath the stars,
Neath the sky,
As we go,
This we know,
God is nigh.
As with most of this countries patriotic songs, Taps is as much a prayer as it is a song. What better words for our fallen comrades to rest with than "This we know, God is nigh."
The pledge by Red Skelton
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=LPbIls0iOnI
And this from John wayne
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=3Jf3MQpffBc&NR=1
And TAPS
One version of the origin of the song:
It all began in 1862 during the Civil War, when Union Army Robert Ellicombe was with his men near Harrison's Landing in Virginia. The Confederate Army was on the other side of the narrow strip of land. During the night, Captain Ellicombe heard the moan of a soldier who lay mortally wounded on the field. Not knowing if it was a Union or Confederate soldier, the captain decided to risk his life and bring the stricken man back for medical attention. Crawling on his stomach the through gunfire, the captain reached the stricken soldier and began pulling him toward his encampment. When the captain finally reached his own lines, he discovered it was actually a Confederate soldier, but the soldier was dead. The captain lit a lantern, suddenly he caught his breath and went white with shock. In the dim light, he saw the face of the soldier, it was his own son.
The boy had been studying music in the South when the war broke out. Without telling his father, he enlisted in the Confederate Army. The following morning, heartbroken, the father asked permission of his superiors to give his son a full military burial despite his enemy status. His request was partially granted. The captain had asked if he could have a group of Army band members play a funeral dirge for the son at the funeral. That request was turned down since the soldier was a Confederate. Out of respect for the father, they did say they could give him only one musician. The father chose the bugler. He asked the bugler to play a series of musical notes he had found on a piece of paper in the pocket of his dead son's uniform. This wish was granted.
This music was the haunting melody we now know as "Taps"
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=usk81XVsE9o&feature=related
Here are the words to TAPS:
Verse 1:
Day is done,
Gone the sun,
From the lakes,
From the hills,
From the sky,
All is well,
Safely rest,
God is nigh.
Verse 2:
Fading light,
Dims the sight,
And a star,
Gems the sky,
Gleaming bright,
From afar,
Drawing nigh,
Falls the night.
Verse 3:
Thanks and praise,
For our days,
Neath the sun,
Neath the stars,
Neath the sky,
As we go,
This we know,
God is nigh.
As with most of this countries patriotic songs, Taps is as much a prayer as it is a song. What better words for our fallen comrades to rest with than "This we know, God is nigh."
Tuesday, May 25, 2010
Birthdays
Yesterday was Laura's Birthday, "HAPPY BIRTHDAY". Some people look at birthdays and other holidays as just another day in their busy schedules but not my wife. Holidays, and especially birthdays are semi-major events on to be observed. this is one of the things I love about her. It seems the only one she doesn't build up is her own (she shouldn't have to). I love to try and please her in little ways to remind her of my love for her.
We went to dinner this evening and she was a bit concerned that her mother had not remembered her birthday. This changed when we got home and heard Grammy's sweet voice wishing her a happy day. No big party this year, No kids in the entire State, yet contentment in phone calls and messages. Another message saved on the answering machine of 3 grand children singing "Happy Birthday" to Grandma.
So, another birthday passes, and others come. David's is next in 2 days. will his day be forgotten? No way! The timeless tradition has passed to the next generation. Did we have multiple parties? No we didn't, not like in years past. Mothers day and Laura's birthday are now past, but there is always another holiday just around the corner. Memorial day, Fathers day, Anniversary, Independence day, ..., each another reason to celebrate. Isn't that what life is about sometimes, a reason to celebrate? Live a little then and pick a date for any special reason and celebrate.
We went to dinner this evening and she was a bit concerned that her mother had not remembered her birthday. This changed when we got home and heard Grammy's sweet voice wishing her a happy day. No big party this year, No kids in the entire State, yet contentment in phone calls and messages. Another message saved on the answering machine of 3 grand children singing "Happy Birthday" to Grandma.
So, another birthday passes, and others come. David's is next in 2 days. will his day be forgotten? No way! The timeless tradition has passed to the next generation. Did we have multiple parties? No we didn't, not like in years past. Mothers day and Laura's birthday are now past, but there is always another holiday just around the corner. Memorial day, Fathers day, Anniversary, Independence day, ..., each another reason to celebrate. Isn't that what life is about sometimes, a reason to celebrate? Live a little then and pick a date for any special reason and celebrate.
Still shrinking
I haven't posted in a while so I need to catch up. I am currently down to 268# and on target to be down to the 250# mark before China. After my surgery, I slowly crept back up to 287# and knew I had to do something else. I will give more detail later, but I (with Laura in full support) have jumped full bore into a plan where I subside on around 1000 calories per day in a controlled program. In the first 19 days I have lost 19# and 5 1/2" off my belly.
I am encouraged by what I see in the mirror and the scales. That would be the scales at Courthouse. Our home scales still just tell me "ERROR" when I step on them. I did get a reading finally the other day and it said I weighed 125#. I really miss some of the foods that I can not have, such as peanut butter, but it will be worth it in the end. Enough on this for now, I will provide all the details in another post.
I am encouraged by what I see in the mirror and the scales. That would be the scales at Courthouse. Our home scales still just tell me "ERROR" when I step on them. I did get a reading finally the other day and it said I weighed 125#. I really miss some of the foods that I can not have, such as peanut butter, but it will be worth it in the end. Enough on this for now, I will provide all the details in another post.
Monday, March 29, 2010
Vacations
Needing a break from things around here, Laura & I took off in the Rented car and drove to Santa Rosa to see H & D and the California Grand kids. So much to do and so little time to do it, this would describe our trip. Parks, Doughnut castles, Train town, San Francisco Pier 39, Redwoods, Sunshine, Rain, Lots of food, Olives, Hotels, ... These are some of the things that kept us busy for a week.
Coming in July, we have the amazing opportunity of going to China to visit M & H and China Grand kids, for 16 days. Harm pointed out that 30 years to the day after having our 1st child (her), we are finally traveling outside of this country. We were searching for tickets to fly and the average was looking like it would be about $1100.00 each but I found tickets on the exact dates we wanted for $605.00 each - after tax we got both tickets for about $ 1300.00 so I had to buy them. Now we are locked in, July 24 to Aug. 9. We are very excited as we look ahead to this. More on the planning stages will follow.
Sandwiched in the middle of these events, in June Harmony will have her baby, resulting in another trip to California (maybe just Laura).Now, if we didn't have to deal with School & work, things would still be busy.
Coming in July, we have the amazing opportunity of going to China to visit M & H and China Grand kids, for 16 days. Harm pointed out that 30 years to the day after having our 1st child (her), we are finally traveling outside of this country. We were searching for tickets to fly and the average was looking like it would be about $1100.00 each but I found tickets on the exact dates we wanted for $605.00 each - after tax we got both tickets for about $ 1300.00 so I had to buy them. Now we are locked in, July 24 to Aug. 9. We are very excited as we look ahead to this. More on the planning stages will follow.
Sandwiched in the middle of these events, in June Harmony will have her baby, resulting in another trip to California (maybe just Laura).Now, if we didn't have to deal with School & work, things would still be busy.
Recovery & Rehab
Recovery, it's not what you might expect. As much as I thought I was prepared for this, the(self)rehab is slow going and painful. Part of the problem is the continual dealing with my injured foot. This makes it difficult to walk, even in the pool. My Dr. feels the foot is healing with time and believes he may not have to cut & repair it, now that's a blessing. I see my Back Doctor tomorrow, will get an updated prognosis on the healing process.
As I expected, I did not keep down below 280 post surgery, I find myself at 283 lbs. This gives me a good starting point to jump start phase 2 of my mission of reclaiming my body. My wife & I have been looking at several options of things I (we) can do next. I am mentally prepared to continue this battle (physically, I'm still in the battle too). To complete preparations for events this summer, I have to really kick it into the next gear.
I really put my back to the test over the last week. We put on about 1400 miles of driving over 6 days. I absolutely felt the results for several days afterwords, requiring heating pads and rest. The pain pill (Happy pill) phase is over. As tempted as I may have been, I am not taking them. The last 2 days have been a lot better, I haven't needed to use my back brace. After I see the Back Dr., I will have a better idea of when I can expect to return to work and be able to start lifting weights to work out.
More later.
As I expected, I did not keep down below 280 post surgery, I find myself at 283 lbs. This gives me a good starting point to jump start phase 2 of my mission of reclaiming my body. My wife & I have been looking at several options of things I (we) can do next. I am mentally prepared to continue this battle (physically, I'm still in the battle too). To complete preparations for events this summer, I have to really kick it into the next gear.
I really put my back to the test over the last week. We put on about 1400 miles of driving over 6 days. I absolutely felt the results for several days afterwords, requiring heating pads and rest. The pain pill (Happy pill) phase is over. As tempted as I may have been, I am not taking them. The last 2 days have been a lot better, I haven't needed to use my back brace. After I see the Back Dr., I will have a better idea of when I can expect to return to work and be able to start lifting weights to work out.
More later.
Friday, February 5, 2010
Happy Pills
Post surgery, a time for recovery. The Surgeon came to my room the day after the surgery to look things over & see how I was doing. He seemed pleased with my progress and said I could go home after my back brace came or I could stay another night if I wanted too. Why would I want to stay – no sleep, nurses every ½ hour taking stats, lights on all night, …the happy pills were always being brought in. Happy pills in my case turned out to be percocet’s. Upon going home, Laura went to fill my prescription. The surgeon, as it turned out, prescribed a bottle of 200 percocet tablets – up to 10 per day. There’s a nice way to start an addiction.
For the last 3 days, I have needed to take a total of 10 tablets (no addicts here). I believe I am handling the recovery pretty well right now. I was able to walk about 7-8 block circle today after walking a few blocks yesterday. I am trying to keep a grip on my diet till I can start back up at the gym. Matthew asked me last week to tell if & when I am tempted to “cheat” on the diet. I was tempted on Monday at Walgreen’s in the candy isle, but walked through it to just pick up my vitamins I needed. It really was a challenge for me, tried to justify only one before the Surgery. Besides, I had reached my next benchmark of 280 lbs. (279 on Monday, 280 was my goal before surgery). I found a compromise in a healthy 100 calorie bar, I can live with that.
Laura counted 17 staples in about 8” on my back. These are painful to put pressure on, so I have trouble sleeping still. Next Thursday, Feb 11th they come out @ 2:20 PM. Until then, Laura gets to be my nurse & change the dressing daily. I really couldn’t get through this without her. My dad & Rita came over last night; I struggled to stay focused since I had just taken a happy pill. I have a lot of paperwork and school work to do as well as taxes, but I need a couple more days to clear my head & become less dependent upon the little round feel-goods. I believe it will happen soon enough.
Well, I’ve reached my limit for sitting for now, so I'm off to take another happy pill, more later ...
For the last 3 days, I have needed to take a total of 10 tablets (no addicts here). I believe I am handling the recovery pretty well right now. I was able to walk about 7-8 block circle today after walking a few blocks yesterday. I am trying to keep a grip on my diet till I can start back up at the gym. Matthew asked me last week to tell if & when I am tempted to “cheat” on the diet. I was tempted on Monday at Walgreen’s in the candy isle, but walked through it to just pick up my vitamins I needed. It really was a challenge for me, tried to justify only one before the Surgery. Besides, I had reached my next benchmark of 280 lbs. (279 on Monday, 280 was my goal before surgery). I found a compromise in a healthy 100 calorie bar, I can live with that.
Laura counted 17 staples in about 8” on my back. These are painful to put pressure on, so I have trouble sleeping still. Next Thursday, Feb 11th they come out @ 2:20 PM. Until then, Laura gets to be my nurse & change the dressing daily. I really couldn’t get through this without her. My dad & Rita came over last night; I struggled to stay focused since I had just taken a happy pill. I have a lot of paperwork and school work to do as well as taxes, but I need a couple more days to clear my head & become less dependent upon the little round feel-goods. I believe it will happen soon enough.
Well, I’ve reached my limit for sitting for now, so I'm off to take another happy pill, more later ...
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